I Hate You, I Love You

That’s the story of us.

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There are moments when I look at him, and my heart aches with love. Then, there are times when he says something, does something, that makes me want to scream.

I hate you, I love you — that’s the story of us.

I never imagined loving someone could feel this complicated.

When I met Isaac, he was everything I ever wanted. Charming, funny, always ready with a smile.

He knew how to make me feel like the most important person in the room.

I fell in love with him quickly, without hesitation, and when we got married, I thought I had found my forever.

But forever isn’t always as easy as the love stories make it seem.

I love how he can make me laugh until my stomach hurts, how he knows just the right things to say when I’m feeling low. I love how he holds me close at night, his warmth soothing my restless mind.

But then, there are the other times. The times when his words cut deeper than he realises, when his actions make me question how much he really sees me.

Like last week, when we were at dinner with his friends. I was telling a story — nothing special, just a funny thing that happened at work. But as I spoke, he interrupted me. “That’s not how…